The Day My First Love Ended

HEEEEEEEEEE

Yesh!! I wrapped up my first (one-sided) love of eh...3 years?

Seeing him after so long....
I surprisingly felt nothing XD
Except for some feeling of familiarity and fondness
That's amazingly ALL

I expected something more dramatic from myself...
Yeah...I expected to come home in tears knowing that he's got someone now
LOL..so dramatic

Well, the someone he has is like this ah-ma-zing girl~~
She looks intelligent and thoughtful too ^^
Pretty tooooooo....

Oh dear...I sound like I like her more than him

OOPPPSSS :D

After watching the movie today,
it kind of woke me up from my fantasy of what's happening in my relationship now
The guy 'Victor' seemed very much like me...busy doing things that make myself happy
The girl 'Sophie' is so much like my 'him'...
He's always putting 1000% into this relationship
But I don't seem to bother much
I do what I want...when I want
I constantly hurt his feelings these days...
It doesn't feel right anymore

I get pissed off at those little things he does
I get angry and frustrated when he's not there when I want him to be
I ignore him when he's here
I try my best to sympathize with his daily grudgings..but I always fall short
There's always others who can help him more than me
Because I always think that if we can't help ourselves..who's going to help us?
I've never taken people's help for granted so I seldom ask for it..
Unless..I'm despo or we're really close

I don't think it's fair for him
For him to have someone as nonchalant as me...
Either I hate to be tied down
or I'm not used to this lovey-dovey stuff

But saying goodbye as early as now...
wouldn't be right either...
would it??