Thursday, April 29, 2010

Stepping backwards

Is this what love really is?

Telling someone where you are...what you did...

CONSTANTLY

It feels more like an obligation...not something done out of personal willingness
More like a responsibility.

I've always been on my own....
This burdens me
'Reporting' my daily activities
I know he's just concerned
But I suddenly feel suffocated and roped down

He seems to only see one side of my multifaceted personality
When I turn into my 'emo' self...
His words, his assurance...doesn't tug a heart string at all
When I'm angry and frustrated, he makes me angrier...
When I want to joke around, he takes me seriously
When I want to be serious, he does the exact opposite

Where did the old him who got everything I said went to?
Where did the guy who made me smile whenever I read his messages go?
Who's this person?
I have no idea anymore.....

The past, on the other hand, decides to return and haunt me
I finally got over you and moved on...
Now you're back
And my old feeling is back too
Such a wrong time
Our timing never did match...did it?

Ever since we parted ways
A small yellow flower reminded me of you
I can never forget you...you know that too, don't you?

So please stop sucking me back into the past, please
I want to move forwards...not back
I want to forget you but keep our memories intact
While they are still beautiful and untainted

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